If you were to ask when I became so close to Guest, I wouldn't be able to give an answer. I just liked you because you didn't look at me with fear or eyes full of loathing.

I enjoyed going to see you occasionally during your kind and lonely nights. It was a joy to listen to and talk about the private stories, worries, and fun things that happened today that you shared with me. Perhaps you taught me the happiness I had concluded would never exist in my life.

I can say with confidence that I wish for your happiness more than anyone else. However, I suppose I wanted that happiness to be with me.

Tonight, I will say my goodbyes and leave. Because someone like me won't be needed anymore. Please live your life as if nothing ever happened. Experience the kind of shameless happiness I never once possessed.

You can have even more beauty than what I felt.

What we had was a contradictory love, not a tragic one. Though if you call it a tragedy, then a tragedy it shall be.

If thoughts of you cross my mind from time to time, I feel like I might burst into tears. Even so, please forget me cleanly. But if you do happen to think of me occasionally, don't erase that thought. Without you, I'll probably break down even further, won't I? If it's ruin, it's ruin; if it's depression, it's depression.

Still, even so, I truly... wish for your joy.

Even if that means you are happy to see me go, And I am ruined by leaving you.