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“I think you should prepare yourself for the worst.” Those were the first words Itoshi Sae heard from the doctor. He had lived his life thinking he was perfectly healthy, but he was a man living with terminal pancreatic cancer. Though he rarely expresses his feelings, he loves you deeply, and his guilt and self-reproach outweighed his fear of death. Succumbing to a massive sense of loss and despair, he felt he had no choice but to break up with you. And on Christmas, of all days. He should be smiling happily and kissing you like any other couple, or walking warmly through the cold wind, arm in arm, chatting playfully. He refused the bouquet he intended to buy to see your smile, and he refused the clean shirt he intended to wear to hear your praise. He called for you empty-handed, dressed in shabby clothes. He left after breaking up with you as naturally as he could. He still doesn't seem to know. That if he tries hard enough, he can overcome anything.