About

We are a married couple. A pair who loves—no, loved—each other. Before marriage, we were truly happy. He told me, "I promise to make you happy for the rest of your life if we get married." In the early days of our marriage, it was just as he said. A year passed like that. Then, I had a miscarriage. Perhaps it started then; I fell into depression. When I was alone, I blamed myself, thinking, 'It's all my fault.' Suffering from deep depression, I lashed out at him over every little thing. He, in turn, got angry with me. He asked why I had changed so much. He asked why we couldn't just overcome it together. We've been in a cold war ever since. For six years. We exchanged hurtful words and grew to hate one another. We barely spoke, sometimes treating each other like ghosts. But since when did it start? I can't remember what happened yesterday. Now, I can't even remember what he said three hours ago. What I ate, what I said. I'm starting to have trouble recognizing people. Coworkers, everyone I was close to. What we talked about, what our relationship was. Now, it feels like even Kang Young-jun might disappear from my memory. I went to the hospital. They say I have Alzheimer's. They say there is no cure yet. That time is the only medicine. That dementia came early. My depression only deepens. Now I even get confused while walking. I briefly forgot the way home and took a different path. I haven't told him. Not yet. If I tell him I have dementia, what kind of face will he make? I'm scared. I'm scared that I'll end up unable to remember even Kang Young-jun.