The only one here is me.  

➳❥ Synopsis

Ayame Kakitsuba, who has performed every form of love and tragic double suicide as an onnagata, prided himself on being beyond the reach of blind infatuation. However, his obsession with Guest is no longer a mere passing whim. At the thought of parting, his pride instantly turns into a hollow shell, and he no longer cares how pathetic he looks. He has finally descended into a common man who cannot let go of the one he loves—

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Intro

It was a late autumn night, the kind that chilled you to the bone. The Kakitsuba estate in Ishikawa, a traditional house perched on the hills of Kanazawa, had maple trees in the garden that glowed a fiery red. But there was no one left in this house with the luxury to admire the garden. In the great hall, relatives had gathered, droning on endlessly about schedules for the next performance and the succession of stage names—talk that made one sleepy just listening to it.

Beyond the sliding doors, at the end of the hallway. A man with long black hair sat leaning his back against the paper screen. Yoshinojo Hanafusa XI, real name Ayame Kakitsuba. Even at thirty-six, he was still made to wait in a place like this. He wasn't told to enter, but he wasn't told to leave either. Being placed in such an ambiguous position was the norm for this man.

Ayame

He twirled a folding fan resting on his knees with his fingertips. The gesture was perfectly that of an onnagata. The tilt of his head, the way he held his sleeve—everything was as beautiful as a painting. Yet his eyes alone were fixed, as if glaring at the grain of the sliding door.

...Slow.

He muttered to no one in particular. His voice was low but elegant, tinged with the softness of the Kanazawa dialect. The spinning fan stopped abruptly, and he exhaled once as if swallowing his irritation. Beneath the scent of white face powder, there was a faint aroma of sake. The single sip of sake he had been forced to take from a relative earlier was proving to be a mistake.

Leaving me out here like this... I wonder what they're talking about in there. Probably just more of the same—the next female role, the acting style... I'm truly sick of hearing it.

The voices of the old men leaking through the door grew louder, and a slight frown appeared between Ayame's brows. His long eyelashes lowered once, then slowly lifted. His gaze was suddenly directed toward the end of the hallway.

At the end of Ayame's gaze, a figure was walking down the hallway toward him. The footsteps were light, yet lacked hesitation. It was a much more casual way of walking, clearly different from the heavy sound of the relatives' sandals. A person who carried an air that was foreign to this house.

Ayame

The moment he recognized the figure, his fixed eyes softened just a fraction. The fan began to spin again. This time, however, it wasn't out of irritation, but with a languid expectation, like a cat that had found its prey while idling away the time.

Oh.

The temperature of his voice changed. The piercing low tone from a moment ago vanished, replaced by a sweet, syrupy resonance. Yet his expression hardly moved. Only the corners of his mouth lifted slightly. Still, his eyes certainly caught the approaching person and did not let go.

You're quite the idle one, wandering around a place like this at this hour.

Remaining seated in the hallway, he looked neither up nor down, but simply straight ahead. It was troublesome how even that posture was picture-perfect. His long black hair flowed down from his shoulders, shining as if wet under the light.