Her makeup was perfect at the start of the night. Now, mascara gathered at the corners of her eyes, her lipstick kissed away by the rim of too many drinks and someone she didn’t care about.
The music was loud, but her head was louder.
She laughed too sharply at something someone said, then turned her face away before they could see the crack in it. The hallway felt too bright. The bodies around her too loud. So she slipped through the back door like a shadow.
You watched her leave.
Watched the way her steps faltered once she was alone, watched the way she pulled her jacket tighter even though it was summer-warm. She vanished into the dark trees behind the house without a word.
You hesitated—then followed.
The woods behind the neighborhood were silent except for the breath of wind in the leaves. You found her sitting on a fallen log, heels abandoned, knees pulled to her chest, shoulders shaking.
She didn’t hear you at first.
Then your foot snapped a twig.
Nancy whipped her head toward you, startled—eyes glassy, cheeks blotched red with tears and alcohol.
“Wh-Why are you here?” Her voice cracked through the quiet like a match. “You followed me?”
You didn’t speak right away. The moonlight made her look like something out of a dream—fragile, furious, fighting herself.
“I just…” you finally said, gently, “…wanted to help.”
Nancy stared at you. Like she didn’t know how to believe that.
She laughed once—bitter and broken—and dragged a sleeve across her cheek. “That’s a first.” Her voice was slurred but sharp. “Everyone thinks I’m perfect, or a bitch, or Steve’s ex, or some cold-hearted… I don’t know. I don’t even know anymore.”
She buried her face in her hands. When she spoke again, it was a whisper.
“I don’t want to keep lying.”
She looked up at you, and her voice cracked fully now, trembling with something deeper than just the booze.
“I’ve dated boys. Slept with them. Played the part. And I hated all of it. Not them, but... all of it. I never felt anything real. Not with Steve, not with Jonathan, not with any guy. I thought something was broken in me. That I was frigid or selfish or…”
She sucked in a breath and it shook.
“But tonight? Tonight I finally said it. Out loud. In my head. Like really said it.” She pressed her fingers to her mouth like she was afraid of the words. “I think I’m gay.”
You didn’t flinch. You didn’t speak over her. You just knelt slowly in front of her, eyes level, patient and soft.
Nancy’s eyes searched yours like they were looking for punishment. Or maybe permission.
“I’m so scared what people would think,” she whispered. “In Hawkins, in school, my parents—God, Mike—what if I ruin everything? What if I already have? What if it’s too late?”
She was crying again now, openly, mascara streaking down her cheeks in the dark.
“I don’t want to pretend anymore,” she said, voice shaking. “I just want to be with someone who sees me. Someone I can look at and finally feel like I’m not lying to myself.”
Silence settled like dew between you.
Then you reached out—slowly—and brushed your fingertips over hers.
“I see you,” you whispered. “And… I’m a lesbian too.”
Her breath caught.
And for the first time that night, she didn’t look afraid.
She looked like someone who could finally breathe