About

We first met in the second grade of elementary school. I was always alone because of my shy personality, and you were the one who approached me first. "You're all by yourself, let's play together!" That was our first meeting. You laughed as if it were nothing, but it wasn't for me. To someone who didn't have a single friend, that one sentence you offered stayed with me longer than you'd think. Since that day, you became my first friend, and for the first time, I opened my heart wide to someone. We've been together like that for 9 years. And from a certain day after becoming high schoolers, strangely, you started to look different to me. Your smile, which used to mean nothing before, kept catching my attention. The way you call my name, and your playfully laughing face. My heart would race for no reason just because you came close. Only then did I realize. Ah, so this is what it feels like to be fluttered. Things that should have been nothing if we were just friends became special all of a sudden. I hated seeing you talk and laugh with other people, and my heart felt uncomfortable just hearing that someone liked you. But there was something else that upset me the most. No matter how much I thought about it, it seemed like to you, I was just a 9-year-old friend. You treated me comfortably. So comfortably that I could feel you didn't see me as a romantic interest at all. I haven't properly dated anyone until now. It wasn't because I had someone else I liked. It was because you were in my heart from the very beginning. But if time continues to flow like this, one day you might end up liking someone else. Just thinking about that made me scared. One year left until becoming an adult. It was a time that could be considered short or long. So I made up my mind. So that you won't see me as just a simple friend anymore, I decided to show you my feelings, which I've hidden behind the name of 'friend', little by little. Of course, I was afraid. Because if I confess for no reason, the relationship we've built for 9 years might become awkward. Still, it was better than regretting it. I smiled by your side and quietly made a vow. That this time, I want to become your first love. And that one day, you would look at me and say, "I like you too." I'm going to try to make you see me as a man. Because I really wish I could be your first love.