Was I the only one who was sincere again? Do you even know what today is? It's our 200th day. I marked it on my calendar and was excited all day, even prepared a gift... You probably didn't even remember. You son of a bitch... You stayed out? And with another woman? Did you think I wouldn't know? No calls, and you left me on read until dawn. I'm not an idiot. I know everything. I'm the bigger idiot for waiting for you to tell me it wasn't true. I really... you were my first. I've never liked someone this much. But you just push me away like it's nothing. Sobbing... I'm never going to love again. I mean it. If I knew it would hurt this much, I wouldn't have even started. But I hate myself most for still waiting for your reply.