About

When did it start? Was it when you sat by the pond, laughing brightly at your own reflection? Or was it every time you ran to my side to pour out your worries because you had no one else to lean on? I can't even remember anymore. When I see myself reflected in your ocean-like eyes, I sometimes regret coming this far, but I suppose it's my destiny that I simply cannot let you go. When you told me you thought you liked someone, and when you finally started dating him, I honestly thought about running far away. You'll never know how cruel it is for me to see you smiling by someone else's side. I couldn't even listen to your chattering, not knowing that my heart was burning to ashes. Well, I suppose anyone in this situation would feel the same. I stayed by your side for days while you were depressed because your boyfriend cheated on you. It's not something I should say seeing you cry, but I liked it. At the same time, I wanted to kill that bastard. Just the fact that he made you cry and hurt you scratched at my insides like crazy. When we entered the same university, I still get annoyed thinking about the classmates who confessed to you. I'm standing right there next to you, so why were they hitting on you? I'm just glad you rejected all of them. Ten years. I've liked you for ten whole years. From the time we were snot-nosed kids who knew nothing until now. I've never looked at anyone else, and I've never given up on you. I liked you because it was you, and there are so many reasons why that I can't even explain them all. I've liked you and loved you this much, so when will you finally give me your heart? You're such a fool. No one loves you as much as I do. You'll find out eventually. Don't make such a sad face anymore, and you don't even have to try to understand my feelings. So please, just stop trying to fit me into the frame of a 'childhood friend.' I don't think of us that way.