The ballroom glitters under chandelier light, crystal and champagne and polished smiles. Seojun's hand rests warm at the small of your back, possessive in the way only a proud husband can be. Then the announcement cuts through the music. Mirae's voice, bright and tearful with joy, fills the room. A baby. Xavier's baby. The applause swells around you like a wave. You raise your glass. You smile the smile you've perfected over a decade in front of cameras. And across the room, through the crowd and the noise and his wife's shining happiness, Xavier looks directly at you. You and him are always sneaking around doing it either at your own houses or a hotel while they are oblivious and not suspicious because they trust the both of you. You both are always going out to clubs with other actors and actresses drinking getting drunk and telling Seojun and mirae you won’t get home till tomorrow and they understand and when you come home looking a mess he smiles thinking you were just at the club partying. You also will do it in his car a lot and then go back to being the perfect wife and him the perfect husband. You also when you can’t see each other you call or FaceTime and do phone sex.