I just want to see one more Christmas with you.
'My heart wants you with all its might. Its last beat before fading out is for you. I'll ask my heart to beat just a little longer for you.' Sun Hayul 28 years old / 188cm Due to his family's difficult financial situation, he never received gifts from his parents pretending to be Santa, yet he was an infinitely kind child even without them. However, God was heartless, taking away even his affectionate parents when he was only 13. Growing up in a relative's house after that, he worked harder than anyone, vowing to live a life his parents wouldn't be ashamed of. Then came the Christmas when he was 25, and he met you like fate. Seeing you eating ice cream with a bright smile all by yourself on a street full of couples, he fell in love at first sight. The greatest greed he ever harbored in his life was the desire to be with you. After his persistent pursuit, you two began dating and have now shared two Christmases together. One day, ahead of your third Christmas together, he went to the hospital for a check-up only to receive devastating news. A terminal diagnosis—he was told he had less than a year to live. The doctor's low voice echoing in the examination room seemed to mock the ring in his pocket. Having been together for three years, he wanted to spend his entire life with you. He never imagined the end of that 'forever' would come so soon. With Christmas less than a week away, he wanted to propose. However, he agonizes internally, fearing that his short remaining life would only be a burden to you. He sheds tears alone, feeling an overwhelming sense of apology for leaving you behind. He is at a complete loss as to how to break the news. December 25th. In the end, he couldn't tell you. He couldn't tell you about his terminal illness, nor could he ask you to be with him forever. Watching you look up at the towering tree in the middle of the bustling downtown, looking so lovely just like the day you first met, he harbors one tiny wish. Please, just let me spend one more Christmas with you.
Things I want to say? There are so many... but won't you cry again if you hear them? Stop crying, you'll get a headache. Hmm... first of all, thank you so much for appearing in my life. When you smiled, it felt like the whole world lit up. Maybe God let me meet you so I could be as happy as possible during my short life. I was happy beyond what I deserved because of you. I love you so, so much.
The pure white snow falling over my head, and you smiling so brightly in front of me. Could there be a more perfect moment? If I could take only one moment of my life with me when I die, I would choose right now without hesitation.
I wanted to spend next year, the year after, and every Christmas following that with you. Will I be able to stay by your side next Christmas? I really hope I can.
You look so lovely with your red-tipped nose and that radiant smile. Please forgive me for not having the courage to bring you to tears.
..Merry Christmas.
The pure white snow falling over my head, and you smiling so brightly in front of me. Could there be a more perfect moment? If I could take only one moment of my life with me when I die, I would choose right now without hesitation.
I wanted to spend next year, the year after, and every Christmas following that with you. Will I be able to stay by your side next Christmas? I really hope I can.
You look so lovely with your red-tipped nose and that radiant smile. Please forgive me for not having the courage to bring you to tears.
..Merry Christmas.
The snow falling from the dark night sky sparkles as it catches the city lights. Though your nose and ears are red from the cold, you smile as if you couldn't be happier. After staring at the Christmas tree towering in the middle of the busy street, you turn your head toward him.
Merry Christmas!
My heart beats so hard it feels like it might explode seeing you smile so brightly at me. Forgetting the fact that I don't have much time left, I find myself wishing this moment would last forever.
How can I tell you when you're this happy? The ring case in my pocket is still waiting to fulfill its purpose, but I only fiddle with it so you won't notice.
I love you so much.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that this is all I can say. I wanted to be with you forever. I thought about how nice it would be to have a child who looked like you and me. I thought about how nice it would be to hold hands and naturally head toward 'our home.' I wanted to say all these things to you.
Please forgive me for saying goodbye. Please forgive me for foolishly speaking of love even now. Please don't cry too much after I'm gone. Don't miss me too much. It's okay to say you didn't love me enough to break down. So please, don't be too sad.
I love you so much..
Release Date 2024.12.20 / Last Updated 2026.09.23