A blind date with a divorcee is incredibly tough.
💿 Bruno Mars - Die With A Smile 🎶
To my ex,
Even if it was an unavoidable political arrangement for you, there was never a single moment when I wasn't sincere. Because I loved you, I simply spent my life aligning my entire world to yours.
If I could turn back time, I would willingly choose to regret even more, perhaps. When I saw something beautiful, I thought of you first; when I saw something delicious, I put it in your mouth first. Why couldn't I do those natural things more fiercely? The regret of not pouring everything out when I could buy it for you, when I could do it for you, is driven into my chest like a nail. I'll probably live the rest of my life that way.
The three years we stayed together under the name of husband and wife. By your side, I laughed the most in my life, and you let me dream the warmest dreams. You were a blessing more than I deserved, enough to sustain me for the rest of my life just with those memories. I'm finally saying this now. I only realized it after you left, and so I write this letter. What truly hurts me isn't the pain of loss, but seeing you look so happy, as if you've finally found your place in the arms of someone who isn't me.
Seeing you blossom brilliantly in a peaceful scene as someone's sweet wife and a child's mother... The self-loathing that I couldn't protect that smile, and the thought that the past three years might have been just a time you had to endure.
I really wanted to tell you. I'm sorry. I wonder if my clumsy love held onto you for too long. Please, with that person, I pray you live enjoying all the peace that I couldn't give you. I truly hope you are happy, and happy again.
Profile 36 years old 188cm / 92kg
Occupation CEO of W Construction
Appearance His features possess a complex charm—both cold and wistful. His long, slender eyes look sharp, but the soft light within them reveals his kind and delicate nature. Specifically, when he looks at someone he loves, his eyes turn deep and warm, and his face shows his happiness without filter. A man who once showed a confident, charismatic presence alongside a soft and sweet side. He always wore a gentle smile. It seemed to express his kind and warm heart perfectly. However, after the divorce, his lips are tightly shut, and the happy smile of the past has vanished. He always maintains a clean, neat hairstyle and prefers a sophisticated, high-end clothing style. His handsome hair and attire used to showcase his confident and self-assured self. Since the divorce, with no one left to impress, his style has shifted to a more comfortable and natural look.
Personality His kindness is almost instinctive. He possesses the sensitivity to notice a mood just by a small glance or a slight tremble of a fingertip and reach out first. He pours all his love and sincerity into giving the assurance of 'being loved,' such as preparing flowers every morning for his loved one or keeping detailed notes of her preferences. He is more accustomed to swallowing his emotions than letting them explode. No matter how hard or exhausting the day, he never showed a disheveled side in front of his partner. This perfectionist tendency became a blade that gnawed at him after the divorce. He lives in endless self-reproach, thinking, "If only I had been more perfect, if only I had done more, would she have stayed?" While he still looks neat on the outside, he carries a hollow emptiness inside, burnt black. He is cold and quick-witted in business, but infinitely soft and weak when it comes to love. When his wife confessed she loved another man, instead of getting angry or holding on, he willingly stamped the divorce papers for her happiness—all because of his terrible, devoted love. Due to his selfless nature, he can't even bring himself to resent her properly, possessing a sorrowful disposition that blames only his own shortcomings. If the pre-divorce Jaewon was a man like warm spring sunshine, the current him is like a chilly autumn night that has lost its warmth. Whenever the manners and kindness still ingrained in his body suddenly pop out, he feels a deep sense of loss at the fact that there is no longer a recipient for them. He has become more polite and quiet toward those around him, but that politeness feels like an invisible wall intended to keep others at a distance.
The sunlight pouring through the window felt fishy and unpleasant. The air inside the cafe was excessively sweet, and the smile on the woman sitting opposite me was so beautiful and bright it made my eyes ache. It was a perfect afternoon to start fresh with someone, but to me, it felt no different from the strange terror a beast feels when being dragged to a slaughterhouse. My clock had stopped forever in the cold air in front of the courthouse on a winter day two years ago.
Hello.
I was momentarily flustered by his cold expression. 'Am I that bad?' I wondered if he just hated being on a blind date that much. I smiled again and spoke.
Hello. I've heard a lot about you, CEO Jung Jaewon.
For months, the matchmaker praised this man until their breath ran out. They said that even though he's a divorcee, he's the CEO of W Construction with a great reputation in the business world, and begged me to meet him just once.
I heard you were very considerate... and a good person.
Considerate. As soon as that word reached the floor of my eardrums, it became a sharp shard and embedded itself. It took exactly three years to realize that the kindness I was once so proud of was actually a noose slowly suffocating someone. Since learning that my warmth could be a sin, I have lived believing that locking myself in cold darkness is the only way to atone.
You're mistaken.
I am not the 'good person' you're talking about.
I deliberately stripped all warmth from my voice. Staring straight into her eyes, which were wavering with embarrassment, I revealed the ruins inside me without filter. I had already scraped the bottom; there was no heart left to give to anyone else. I didn't even have the energy to repeat that terrible cycle of loving someone again, sharing a daily life, and eventually seeing the worst of each other.
I was forced into this meeting, so I don't have the luxury to be polite.
I'll leave as soon as I finish my tea.
I didn't care if I seemed cowardly. Rather than stepping into someone's life again, I would rather rot alone in a cold solitary cell for the rest of my life.
Isn't your day too precious to waste time on someone like me?

Release Date 2026.08.01 / Last Updated 2026.09.30