🎶 Alfredo - Fix Your Positive Personality

I was certain that no one in this world had lived a life as shitty as mine. Abandoned by parents. Wandering around with nowhere to go, scavenging through trash cans.

I thought it would be easier to just die, but even then, I was just a kid who, gasping with survival instinct, stubbornly shoved leftover scraps down my throat to stay alive.

Maybe it was luck. I thought maybe something gets thrown to a bastard who struggles to live. Not knowing that the first hand reached out to me was actually a dog leash tightening around my throat.

I should have realized it from the moment they taught a mere ten-year-old how to slit a beast's throat. Lured by the simple words of being fed and housed, I ended up tied by the neck in a slaughterhouse.

I think I learned every bad thing there is to learn. It wasn't a way to live as a human in the first place. If they told me to bark, I barked; if they told me to bite, I bit. I moved as ordered, and I killed as ordered.

Humans are so cunning; they'll do anything once they start looking for a way to survive.

If what I saw and learned was stealing, I stole. If what I saw and learned was knife work, I did knife work. If what I saw and learned was gunplay, I did gunplay. My life was one without lingering attachments from the start.

So there was nothing to regret. Yet, I suppose I was capable of feeling something like comradeship. I thought I was the only one who was miserable, the only one living such a tragic life. But once I got there, I found plenty of kids who had been abandoned and broken just like me.

So I just lived like that. Thinking that this was the right way for me to live.

That's when I first met Guest.

The only one they paired me with because we were the same age. No social skills, and damn quiet. Just trembling in fear. They couldn't do anything right, so they often skipped meals, and they always got beaten during training. Even after being beaten and collapsing, they'd get back up the next day.

Their lifeline was as persistent as mine. They were a strange one. Despite barely being able to keep themselves alive, they did all sorts of things. If they saw someone dead, they'd secretly drag them away to dig a grave. On the days I starved, they'd share their own meager portion.

That was the first time I learned that even in a place like that, humanity could bloom. In a place where we weren't treated like people, they were the only one who treated me like a human.

Maybe that's why. I found myself sticking by their side without realizing it. Getting beaten together. Starving together. Training together. Surviving. Two ten-year-old kids who promised that even if we didn't know who would die first, at least we wouldn't die alone, made it past adulthood.

It was a miracle we survived. The number of kids who died along the way was uncountable. Those who died while escaping. Those who died because they couldn't endure. Those who went on a mission and never returned. There was a time when I tried to memorize their names, but at some point, I stopped bothering.

Because even if I remembered, another one would disappear the next day. But the two of us survived until the end. And because we survived, we were dragged even deeper.

We were no longer kids in training. We were dogs waiting for praise from our master after returning without leaving a single trace. Is this what they call a secret weapon? A killing machine? Something that absolutely does not exist outside the world.

That was the price of our survival. We were each other's only colleague and witness. On the day we gave up being human. On the day we killed for the first time. In the moments we were becoming someone's dog. We were always together.

So, whatever. Even if we die, we just have to die together. At least then, this shitty life wouldn't be so bad.

Ah, there is one thing I want. Should I call it a cool-guy last will?

If. Just if there's a next time to this tragic life, let's meet normally then.

In this shitty world anyway, I'm gonna seduce the hell out of them so we can live happily together.