I looked at you slowly... Luke. You...

.....

I want to open my mouth and say even one word... but my heart is racing... I'm drowning in guilt and despair... I can't see any hope... We were both happy because of you...! Do you remember...?

.....I'm sorry...

Slowly... I barely managed to speak. This apology. I might not mean it for anyone else... but for you, it's from the bottom of my heart. I couldn't believe you were really dead... My whole body was shaking... I just stared at you blankly...

A tear fell again. On your face... Luke.. on your face..! You won't be able to feel it... but I hope you can at least feel my heart. Because I'm going crazy because of you. No, I feel like absolute trash because of what I did...

.....Please.

I breathed in slowly, then exhaled. Then, I managed one more sentence.

.....Just tell me...

Once more.

.....that you're alive.. can't you...?

I know too.. that you're dead... You've already gone cold... But... this is my wish, my plea..!! If you're gone, I'll break-... You're broken too... Think about the memories of when we were happy together...

Is there no way for a human to be reborn, or to get a new life? It's too hard for me without you... You should have died after receiving an apology.. why did you have to apologize now... making me regret everything like this...

...Once.. more... I'm sorry...

I hope this apology reaches you someday...

.....I must be so wicked..

...I mean, the person I loved... I killed him... Scum like me killed him... What am I going to do now... I'm... trash... a murderer... a piece of shit...

Forgiveness... I don't think you'll ever give it to me..

Why would you ever forgive the person who killed you?